J

Every people meet as strangers. How two individual meet, where they meet are all unique and special. In the club, at an event, at the park, in a fancy restaurant, at the coffee store, etc.. How two strangers meet are uniquely different. How they start the first conversation, how they connect and interact with each other is truly unique. From strangers to somebody back to strangers.

The girl I though could never exist.
The path that we started off so innocent and fun has taken off to this.
Like most we started off as strangers
Its so pathetic how far guys will go just to get the right girl.
We started off talking about Tarots.
But I guess, I made an impression.
All I wanted to do is to hang out with her.
All I wanted is to know more about her.
The only person I wanted to talk to is her.
She was the number one priority.
Even i never saw her.
She was everything I thought that could be perfect.

She was all I had.

She was all I need.

She was all I want.

By the end, we know almost every detail of our daily life.
Being comfortable isnt necessarily bad.
But its how both of us use the comfortable.
Some use it positively in the relationship and grow positively.
But for her and me. We took each other for granted. Knowing that I'd be there for her when she needs me.
Either taking each other for granted or people changing over time.
Bottom line is, Someone stopped trying.
When we got in this stage I couldn't believe it.
It happened so gradually that I don't even see it coming.
The girl i was so crazy about a few months ago had turn into someone not that special anymore.
The effort to make things work just isnt worth it anymore.
I tried various times to try to make changes and fix things and ways to make things work. But it is just wasn't enough.
What next is what will happen to everyone at some point which is the worst point: parting.
I dont know when will it happen or how but I hope we could leave on good mutual terms if thats ever truly possible. This is where we both start a new path, the one that lead to the one we started - Strangers.
The change will be so drastic and so blunt.
The distance will grow.
Eventually the two of us will move on and and find somebody new.
Even we get over the past and try to remain friends, things will never be the same.
Our life will continue on different directions till the never end.
Everything we shared will be fragmented memories.
What's left will be the blog post we shared, the text we typed to each other.
The girl I wanted to spend time and be with so so badly will never be mine.

If life separate us and we end up total different places.
I will always remember that our part of life in these period and be thankful for it.
I guess that is I can wish for and hope she does the same.

Jess and I sad to say.
Will we hate each other, Will we keep in touch?