the bubbles i live in.

I'll sound pathetic in this post but nevertheless. Is it that difficult to find somebody to love? The girl who just changes what everybody defines me as. The only one who needs me more than anything. Hoping that a girl open up to me, is it that hard or impossible? I know girls now days is either looking for a guy whom can provide materialistic security besides emotional and physical security. Guys without or lacking the ability to do so just won't thrive? Is true love which based on attraction of both gender still exist? I really wonder.. Girls whom appear in my life always just disappear in the end. Those whom stays are just a handful but most of them attached to their someone. I do not wish that label or so called identifier of my for all these years to be true. I wish to be the gentlemen to a lady. Be her special someone instead of being the one that just fools and plays with her emotions.